feeling super evil today, cause i find myself selfish. ya.. and i am thinking that you may know me, but may not understand me.. haha cause i am complex. i will show my real mood only when i am at home or with family members. but i don't usually show my anger around friends. sure, they've seen me blue, but it's really nothing compared to the moods i sometimes have at home.somehow i just don't seem to show it that much when in school or out of home. so i guess, cohabitating(?) is the best kind of thing for people like me.. must first test the guy see if he can tahan me not being a domestic sort of woman who likes to whip up dishes in the kitchen, see if he can stand my unreasonably black faces.. poor guy who marries me ar? hahaha =p

of so many years of studying, i really think studying sucks. hahah first time i really mean it. buay tahan. wanna wave white flag surrender. but my parents believe i can do it. and my friends are encouraging me to do it. so for now, i guess i will try to live up to others' expectations, because i don't know whether i believe in myself to have the ability to do it. still with me so far? or are u lost in my blabbering?

told gen to call me at 8am tomorrow morning to try her luck, see if she can get me out of my bed.. should i switch off my hp? hahha =D i really don't want to go to school tomorrow.. 4 lessons.. pathetic timetable.. but risk incurring mrs lim's wrath? rather not.

bit cant be bothered by one of my friends. why tell me the mushy lovey dovey stuff? i not his gf..how to help him solve? haiz. selfish me. but i kinda cant stand it. >.<

but feeling blissful.. hee.. love my darling~! muackiez! =D